Monday, January 17, 2005 - RESISTIR

Almodovar has one really great movie. He made it in the begining of the 90-ies, while his creative juices were at their peak, before he entered his dark  phase.

This movie is very bright, vibrant with colours and flambouyant characters. In Spanish it's called Atame! Which translates Tie me or as american distributors prefer Tie me up, tie me down!

I saw this movie for the second time after almost ten years. This happened more than a week ago, and strangely enough it still  keeps coming back to me. To be exact  one scene keeps resounding in my mind.

It is a closing sceene, after a day of great sex, or if you like juicy primeval shaging, sultry to die for- Victoria Abril and her latin lover Antonio Banderas are enlightened with realisation they are meant for each other and they will probably spend the rest of their lives together....

Totally surprising happyending, after she was kidnapped by him and in the process we learned all about their fucked-up life stories.

Real treat for the likes of me, firm beleivers in favourable life outcomes. This is the sceene:

Its a sunny afternoon, they are in the small car together with her chubby sister.  While driving through teracotta coulored Spanish landscape they are visibly overwhelmed with good feelings. Chubby puts in the tape and plays  the song called Resistir.  Its a cheesy sounding song, Spanish soft pop with a lot of dam, bam, bam sounds. All in all a catchy tune. They are singing aloud  and soon you end up singing with them. While singing, Victoria is shedding tears of joy. She is holding Antonios's hand, chubby sister caressing his cheek.

Perfect image of perfect family in making and then they fade into the  Spanish sunset.

For last couple of days this song has been stuck in my head.

I cannot speak a word of Spanish. Nevertheless, I keep singing this song, especially while driving.

I even translated it in my mind, it goes something like this:

I resist...

I resist fucked up life beginnings and heavy  burdens,

I resist destiny and bad luck,

I resist pain deep within,

Actually - fuck you all,

I will be the winner in the end,

One day I will be the one to fade into the sunset

 with my Victoria Abril...

How strange,  I used to believe my life was quite perfect.  I am not so sure anymore...