Old Friends

Ever meet anyone on the internet who you feel really added a positive charge to your life?  Someone you would talk to everyday?  Told your worst fears to?  And your greatest dreams? Relied on to make your day brighter?  Someone you never met in real life and never would?  That had nothing to do with sex, but all about love?

I met someone like that about five to six years ago.  She was wonderful, and supportive.  She had multiple problems just like everyone else on the site that I met her, but she always took time help me through my troubles.  When she sent me hugs, I really felt her arms around me.  I felt that she was what love was.  Maybe I idealized her, and maybe not.  Maybe I saw a side of her people in real life did not, or maybe she really was like Mother Teresa to all others in her life. 

But I have never been regular.  I start things I don't finish.  I get all goofy over one "trend" until I find something I like to do more, and then that's all I can think of for awhile.  I feel needs for things I don't need...  You know, I'm crazy.

Around 4 years ago, or so, I lost touch with my wonderful friend.  And lately I have been thinking about her a lot.  Wondering if she remembers me.  I was thinking about contacting her(I found her on the net still).  Feels like I burned bridges though.  I mean I know I have burned a lot, but I was hoping to at least touch base with her.

Think I should let it go?  Rember the time fondly?  *sigh*  I would hate to talk to her just to have her drop out of my world again.

8:25 PM - Nov. 11, 2005 - post comment

rebuilding burnt bridges

Sometimes you can cross a line with person that was your friend, and you never can really ever have them back as a friend ever again. But, in your case, who knows? It depends on how damaged the bridge got and whether the path was not well worn before it got burned.

Steve - 6:21 AM - Nov. 12, 2005