Lots of Posts Today...

It might seem like a lot, but this is the third time I have been awake on this day.  It is never ending.  The day that kept going. 

I tried to quit smoking today.  The first person to come over today was jumped, patted down, and cigs were stolen, by me of course.  They did not smoke menthols, so the second person to come over was also jumped, stripped, and tortured for some menthol cigs.  I hate this addiction.  I felt the withdrawl in my gut, my legs.  The funniest thing about whenever I try to quit smoking is that I will be in the bathroom for most of the time.  Seems to me the nicotene does something to my insides and when I don't have it, it wrecks havoc!  Maybe tomorrow...

Besides me being in the bathroom, my sister was in there puking her guts out this morning.  It makes me so happy.  See, she has been staying at my house for a couple weeks because her water pump broke, so she has no water at her house.  And she is going to be puking a lot.  Because... duh duh duh...  I am going to be an aunt!  I am so excited. 

Over a year ago, she lost her first baby.  The fact that she got pregnant was a surprize to us all.  I can not have kids, my other sister can not have kids.  Made sense that she wouldn't be able to, but she did it.  I guess it didn't surprize us much that she lost the first one.  That's really sad to say, but everyone was crushed.  MY parents had three girls, and we are all well into our 20s and they still don't have grandkids.  I think my mom thought I was going to be a teenage parent.  Anyway, she has not told anyone about it yet.  She doesn't want people to know until she is past when she lost the other one.  I guess she lost it really late, like it shouldn't of happened so late in her pregnancy.  I don't know much about it, it's a touchy topic.  So she pukes in my toliet every morning.  It makes me want to puke, but the thought of a little baby, being so close, not being mine, someone I can love, and teach, and mold, it makes me happy.  Even though I am not it's mother, and I am not responsible about anything, I really want to be apart of this kids life.  I want to show it all my mother could not give to me.  I think she wants me to be like a nanny.  When she fixes her well, maybe she will have me move in with her.  That would be nice.  I have like 7 months to wait for a little cool bundle of joy that will have her mothers beautiful eyes, and hopefully none of her attitude.

Reminder!!!  My birthday is coming up.  January 30th.  I will be 26.  I am now accepting gifts.  I accept monitary donations also.  I am so broke and have no money to go out on my birthday.  That's so sad.

Also, if you have any baby crap you want to throw out or give away, I will gladly accept it!  My sister is freshly divorced, pregnant, with no running water at her house, and her truck is falling apart as we speak.  Her house payment is through the roof and she can't sell it without running water.  She needs to get a loan for the new well, and well, frankly, she can't afford it.  When the gas prices were so high, she had to put a lot of her gas on her credit cards just to be able to drive to work.  Ok, I am done with my sob story now. 

Remeber kids!  Take what you want, and leave the rest.  If something bothers you, let it go.  No reason to get worked up over anything here.  Thanks!

11:00 PM - Jan. 17, 2006 - post comment

good...

It is wonderful to want to give to your [sister's] kids the things you missed as a child. I came from a broken home, and I do the same thing with my two boys: I give them a dad that tells each of them that I love them everyday...and I do more things than that, of course. But, even that, is something that I needed and didn't get.

So, my compliments to you, for having such a wonderful sentiment.

BTW, my birthday is tomorrow..."monetary donations" are also welcome! LOL!!

Steve - 2:41 PM - Jan. 18, 2006

That's great

I love babies too. I took care of my nieces and nephews, all of them. And the feeling was great...- jencaalim

Anonymous - 3:32 AM - Jan. 23, 2006

How to stop smoking

I've been practically trying to smoke recently, and man I think if I ever see another cigarette I'm gonna puke. I'm positively amazed that people can become addicted to that stuff. Blegh. So nasty. I'm even sick of cigars at the moment.

Sorry to hear about your sister though, and if it makes you feel any better I spent my last birthday in a psychologist's group session for Agoraphobia. :P

Anonymoose - 12:20 AM - Jan. 25, 2006