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The Invisible ForceNo, I am not talking about gravity. I am talking about whatever it is that is keeping me from having some hot, steamy, animal sex with SI. Some wild get-'er-done sex. Some throw-me-down-on-the-bed-and-pull-my-hair rough sex. Sex.
Sex. That's all I want. Why is it so hard? Why does it seem that anything that could stand in the way of me getting laid IS standing in my way. At every single God Damned pass.
Tonight, FWB came over, unannounced again. He asked me what I was doing. I said I had plans. After last times weirdness where he waited at my house for me to get home, I didn't want to tell him I was going over to SI's. But he pushed it, I told him. He stomped into my living room, he packed up his computer, and on his way out of the door, he said, "I hope you have fun having sex." He SPIT it out at me. He was so mad at me. He was breaking the rules. This is what happens when you break the rules. Rules are good. Rules are there for a reason. Why do people break them? Rules are good, rules are healthy. When you start to break the rules, things start breaking down. I like things WHOLE.
Ok, so after he threw his tantrum and left, I went over to SI's house. I get there, sit down, I am about to touch him, like 2 more minutes and I would have been. His girl friend walks in. We weren't doing anything. We have never done anything. She gives him the death-stare and goes into the bathroom. So we sit and talk a few minutes until she walks from the bathroom, to the bedroom, giving him the death-stare the whole way, not even glancing at me. I was like, should I go? He was like, yeah. So I walk home. Why did she have to come home early? Why did I have to think of small talk while she was in the bathroom? I thought it would be better if I sat there, because I think it would have looked pretty fishy if when she walked in the door, I ran. I used to go there all the time before. I worked with him. We are friends. I don't think it should be a big deal.
And she is a bitch anyway. She cheats on him, stays out all night with strange men. She was his first, so I think he feels like... he should stay with her? He feels some loyalty to her? I dunno. He is so freaking hot. If I was his girlfriend, I would ease his morning wood EVERY morning with a blowjob. I would... well I would do a lot of stuff. Thank God I don't want to be a girl friend. To anyone. Ever again.
So, Jesus Christ, that is like the 10th time we have planned on having sex and SOMETHING FUCKS IT UP!!!! I am not giving up. I will have him. I will have him inside me. I will taste him. I will feel him. I will smell him. I will see every inch of him. God, thinking about this gets me so wet.
Remember boys and girls, sex is the devil. Cut of your penises now. Sew up your vaginas right now. It is just going to lead you to dissapointment. 9:44 AM - Jan. 24, 2006 - post comment
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